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When the secrets are spoken, they have no power...

November 14, 2019

I had Secrets.
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I was a successful coach.
I was a firm anchor for many clients.
I was a cheerful friend.
I was a solid and reliable employee.
I was calm and grounded.
I was well dressed and organized.
I prioritized my health, nutrition, and fitness.
I was motivated and had goals.
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AND
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I was hiding.

I was hiding so much pain.
I was avoiding talking about what was happening at home.
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The unspoken secrets were suffocating.
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I was allowing violent and cruel words to fill my ears and mind.
I went to bed with adrenaline filling my body, knowing I would be woken up to unpredictable situations.
I turned on a recorder at night many times before I went to bed, just in case anything happened.
I pretended to be asleep in the middle of the night, in order to minimize or avoid fights.
I silently tip-toed through my house, hoping to be unnoticed and avoid conflict.
I secretly looked up living spaces, where I might escape the constant fear and emotional turmoil.
I worked and re-worked my expenses, trying to figure out how I could support myself.
I packed emergency bags and made lists of friends I could call in a pinch.
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What kept me stuck?
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Fear.
Embarrassment.
Shame.
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But…
I was only as sick as my secrets.
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Eventually, my courage won. Truth won. My voice won.

And, all my fears crumbled.
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As soon as I acted in faith and in alignment with my self-value, the Universe jumped to support me. There was no shame. Everyone couldn’t wait to support me. To hold me. To offer kindness. To offer labor and time.
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When the secrets are spoken, they have no power.
When the shame is brought into the light, it vanishes.
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Take the leap today.
Tell all the secrets.
Put your shame on the table.
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Be free.

 

 

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